Sketchbook pages 50-53

I've been doodling in my sketchbook!  Hooray!

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1. Gesture sketches.  I referenced poses from a book about Bruce Lee called Bruce Lee; The Art of Expressing the Human Body.  The quote reads, "Knowing is not enough, we must apply.  Willing is not enough, we must do."

2. I read an article about Marilyn Manson's love and use of make-up and wanted to use some red and blue paint.

3. A collage; "Shamanism.  Explore. Learn. Discover.", "Impulse.  Mania.  beauty.  liven up.  day-night.  amazing.  choices."

4. An important reminder collage; "Wake-up call: The 'Not Good Enough' Trap.  Some of us are so used to feeling bad about ourselves, it's become normal.  We have to make a change now, to let go of the 'ideals' we've been taught to achieve, and to stop being ruled by fear.  Essentially, we are addicts, addicted to viewing ourselves in a negative way.  Basically, we're crippled by the fear of not being enough in general.  We have learned...to be afraid of being imperfect - and of being human. That's no way to live. It's tiring and uncomfortable and time-consuming.  We need to stop thinking of ourselves as insufficient, as not good enough.  Essentially, we are addicts, addicted to viewing ourselves in a negative way. A wise woman once told me you can't just stop thinking something, because that leaves a void; you have to replace the old thought pattern with a new, healthier one. What if we replaced our negativity with positivity, replaced the hate with love?  I look in the mirror everyday and say, 'I love you; you're beautiful.'  My mind didn't want to break the habit of hating myself. But the more I did it, the more natural it felt...until it eventually felt good.  I'm over feeling bad about myself."  "Be your beautiful you."  "Kick the habit."

Old Sketch of my Partner

I found this old sketch the other day and was rather titillated by it - it's my partner*!  He's playing video games.  He and I have been together for 12 years!  That's longer than most American couples stay married these days!  I love him, he's so cute, I can't get over him.  I guess we're old souls or something, because even after everything we've been through (and there was a rough patch these past few years) our bond is stronger than ever and we still want to be with one another (and we met in Middle School).  

His father wants me to do a painting to put up in his office - I ought to get on that!

*I use "partner" as a gender-neutral term - I'm an androgynous, sometimes gender-fluid lady-person and he's also rather andro and effeminate but identifies as a male-person.

The house that Jack...

...grew up in.  Who is Jack?  Why, Jack is my OC (one of them - I'll do a post about them soon).  He's one of the stars of a graphic novel I have been working on for ages and WILL complete in the near future!  Anyways, here's the sketch I wanted to share, it's from months ago, probably summertime:

The house that Jack lives in.

It's a stately, creepy, all-white Victorian affair that does exist irl.  It's perfect.  There's a little basement-flat entrance on the right behind some bushes there that is especially neat and creepy.  That's the landlord's entrance.

I ought to get a photo for reference but I don't want to look like a creeper, taking pictures of someone's house (not that I didn't look like a creeper sitting on the curb sketching this...)...struggles!

"artsy fartsy" sketchbook pages

New pages from the sketchbook!  I guess I dredged up old art school exercises 'cause these are all blind contours & "artsy fartsy" type doodles.  Remember, you can see all my sketches together in one place in my online sketchbook ;)

cups cups cups...(drinkin' out of cups...)

 

use your eyes - can't you tell this is a hinged box?! jeez!

all these cups are beginning to look like the Mad Tea Party!

...at least we got some color in that last one...

...but wait!  there's more!

partners always make good subjects!  

when he saw these he said, "cool! looks like ghosts playing violins and stuff!"

right on.

It was nice to draw on paper with some different physical media again.  I actually started wishing I could be drawing on the tablet when I was working on those shaded pencil cups - who'd 'ave thunk it, me, actually enjoying drawing digitally more?!  Haha!  It's pretty exciting to me, honestly.  You can almost see the disinterest in these sketches...I'll just have to get on my tablet and sketch it up and see if this feeling is true!

Creepy!

I have a love of dark, creepy things.  My partner knows this.  My partner shows me this wallpaper this evening after supper:

Awesome!  Nice and creepy!  

But then I thought to myself, "I've seen that demon before!"  I promptly told my partner so and brought up a little drawing I did over four years ago now:

Uncanny!  

My only explanation is I tapped into the collective unconscious (what I can make out of the signature the painting was completed and signed in 2005; I have never seen this painting until today) and brought forth the similar rendering of this entity (both have a hooded-cloak-type-garb, mismatched eyes with one being shiny and the other being dull or missing, the uneven and sharp pointy teeth, the hunched back, the red tones in the skin).  

What's really creepy to me is that the drawing I made I made to represent a violent aspect of myself...

Which makes me think the painting from 2005 (I scoured for the artist and couldn't come up with anything definitive!?) is attempting to illustrate that human plight of balancing the light and dark aspects within one's self.  The "dark" aspect could either be taunting or cowering in its body language while the "light" aspect could either be seen as in a position of defeat or of rising up into its own power.  Beautiful.

New(ish) Piece; "Receding"

This is an old piece that I completed over a year ago; posted this on fb and tumblr but forgot about my blog. So here it is. I believe at the time of this piece's inception, I was obsessed with Pink Floyd's The Wall and the line "There is no pain you are receding" was the actual inspiration. The final piece followed by the rough draft sketch:

New Drawing

I learned to use a tablet recently.

I also remembered to update my blog.

This was supposed to be an OC but it ended up looking like some lovechild of Nymphadora Tonks and Harry Potter AND/OR a scene!Velma... either way, tablet drawing is hella fun and now I can fully realize my dream of becoming a fantastic pornographic artist. Now to just actually draw some NSFW content...

Portfolio!

I have a new home for my art!

Strange Art by Teresea

You can view my paintings (ex. first image), drawings (ex. second image), mixed media pieces (ex. third image), and some current works in progress. Come check it out - just follow the link above!












All three of these images and more can be seen at my new portfolio.

Strange Art by Teresea

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Partial Lunar Eclipse & Venus Transit

We've certainly had some very interesting celestial activity recently what with the Annular Solar Eclipse that occurred May 20th, 2012. There is always a lunar eclipse that accompanies a solar eclipse, either two weeks prior or two weeks after; this lunar eclipse happens to be set two weeks after our solar eclipse and you can get a glimpse of it Monday, June 4th beginning at 6:00 am, peaking at about 7:00am, and ending at about 8:00am. This partial lunar eclipse is happening in Sagittarius.

Here's some info. about it: Partial Lunar Eclipse

Coincidentally, the day after, Tuesday, June 5th, there will be an even more rare event (even more rare than Halley's Comet) - the Transit of Venus.

Transit of Venus FAQ

How to watch the Transit of Venus

This only happens every 120 years or something like that. The Transit of Venus has always preceded growth of communications and is associated with the Goddess energy. Taking place in Gemini, which rules over mind & dualities.



Are you ready for some good vibrations?


(Drawn by yours truly back in 2009).

I know I am.

Peace.

Spring Nostalgia

An old drawing I did; the spring-time weather is nostalgic, though, oh yes.

New bug-guy

A new rendition of the bug-guy I drew in '05...I like the weight of the original much more, but I like the shoes in this one. Finished version on the way.

Old sketch

Haha, look at this old bug-guy I drew in, like, 2005; he's all diplomatic & stuff.