Sketchbook pages 50-53

I've been doodling in my sketchbook!  Hooray!

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1. Gesture sketches.  I referenced poses from a book about Bruce Lee called Bruce Lee; The Art of Expressing the Human Body.  The quote reads, "Knowing is not enough, we must apply.  Willing is not enough, we must do."

2. I read an article about Marilyn Manson's love and use of make-up and wanted to use some red and blue paint.

3. A collage; "Shamanism.  Explore. Learn. Discover.", "Impulse.  Mania.  beauty.  liven up.  day-night.  amazing.  choices."

4. An important reminder collage; "Wake-up call: The 'Not Good Enough' Trap.  Some of us are so used to feeling bad about ourselves, it's become normal.  We have to make a change now, to let go of the 'ideals' we've been taught to achieve, and to stop being ruled by fear.  Essentially, we are addicts, addicted to viewing ourselves in a negative way.  Basically, we're crippled by the fear of not being enough in general.  We have learned...to be afraid of being imperfect - and of being human. That's no way to live. It's tiring and uncomfortable and time-consuming.  We need to stop thinking of ourselves as insufficient, as not good enough.  Essentially, we are addicts, addicted to viewing ourselves in a negative way. A wise woman once told me you can't just stop thinking something, because that leaves a void; you have to replace the old thought pattern with a new, healthier one. What if we replaced our negativity with positivity, replaced the hate with love?  I look in the mirror everyday and say, 'I love you; you're beautiful.'  My mind didn't want to break the habit of hating myself. But the more I did it, the more natural it felt...until it eventually felt good.  I'm over feeling bad about myself."  "Be your beautiful you."  "Kick the habit."

Sketchbook page 42

...why 42?  ...'cause that's the page number I am on in my current sketchbook!  (Also, I didn't want to start at #1 and feel weird 'cause I'm kind of ocd like that.)

I don't do landscapes. I wish I did. So I tried today.

I'm not sure what it is, but I have this problem of really wanting to make art but when it actually comes down to it, I become so disinterested...you can definitely see the disinterest in this sketch, but, hey - at least I went out of my comfort zone in terms of subject matter (& I took my bike down to the beach for this so rekindling my love of biking was well worth the shitty sketch).

I really could use work on perspective (is this the artist's old adage?). But, like I said - total disinterest while making the lines...perhaps I ought to take some paints with me tomorrow/next time.

Tootles for now.

P.S. - all this (and more) can be seen on my online sketchbook.  

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"artsy fartsy" sketchbook pages

New pages from the sketchbook!  I guess I dredged up old art school exercises 'cause these are all blind contours & "artsy fartsy" type doodles.  Remember, you can see all my sketches together in one place in my online sketchbook ;)

cups cups cups...(drinkin' out of cups...)

 

use your eyes - can't you tell this is a hinged box?! jeez!

all these cups are beginning to look like the Mad Tea Party!

...at least we got some color in that last one...

...but wait!  there's more!

partners always make good subjects!  

when he saw these he said, "cool! looks like ghosts playing violins and stuff!"

right on.

It was nice to draw on paper with some different physical media again.  I actually started wishing I could be drawing on the tablet when I was working on those shaded pencil cups - who'd 'ave thunk it, me, actually enjoying drawing digitally more?!  Haha!  It's pretty exciting to me, honestly.  You can almost see the disinterest in these sketches...I'll just have to get on my tablet and sketch it up and see if this feeling is true!